In this feature we are showcasing the work of women authors who are Sai devotees. Some of these books are old friends and some newer, but all are well worth a read. Look for additions to our showcase over the next few months!
by Nooshin Mehrabani
In this well-known book, Nooshin details for readers her journey to Swami and His abundant and loving guidance, especially through the vehicle of dreams. How easy she makes it to relate to her experiences!
Because of my stubbornness, ignorance, and attachment, I chose to believe that Swami’s smile meant that He had changed His mind, and that He agreed I could get married to this man. Later on I thought, how silly of me – I had God in front of me to guide and direct my life, and yet I still didn’t understand Him and was disobedient.
To earn the goodwill of the Master, there is one recipe: obey His order without murmur. Grace is showered on all who obey instructions and follow orders, but the number of such is very small. – BABA (Sathya Sai Speaks, Vol. 2, Ch. 33)
...After four weeks with Swami, I returned to the United States taking the rings (that still had not been blessed!) with me. I began to arrange my marriage...
Karma was playing a beautiful role in my life. When God wants to push you through your karma, positive or negative, He gives you all the confirmation to take action. Swami knows that sometimes we can learn only through experience. Once our personal experience has made us wise, we can avoid generating karma. There are times we don’t know if the experiences we are undergoing are from new or old karma. That is why it is so important to give all the fruits of all actions to God. pp. 111-112
Swami says that everything is reaction, reflection and resound. For most of my life, I reacted to painful experiences with hurt, anger or confusion. Now I know that our perception of any experience is a mirror of similar patterns within us. The more our hearts and minds are purified through sadhana, the less the play of negativity in the world touches us. We witness, but do not react. At the time, I was working hard to transform myself, doing my best to follow Swami’s teaching, which is to practice love in difficult situations. This brings us closer to God; the harmful character traits in us dissolve in the light of Divine love and we attract more loving people and experiences. p. 150
The day before, Swami had told me that He wanted me to translate for everyone, so when we went to the room, I sat next to Swami’s chair. Swami looked at me lovingly and showed me the cushion under His feet. “What is this? Take it and put it there, He said, motioning for me to place it on the ledge next to His chair near the Vibhuti basket. This was surprising, never in all my interviews had I seen Swami remove the cushion from under His feet. The things that happen around Him in His presence are incredible and often beyond our understanding. Only in reflection, are we able to grasp what He meant by certain words or actions.
Soon, everything came together and I found out why Swami wanted me to remove the cushion and put it behind me. He asked everyone to come closer, in this way I came very near, almost touching Him. Swami started to ask people questions, all the while looking at me to translate for Him. As I did the translation, Swami, very quietly without anyone noticing, moved His Lotus Feet closer to me. This gave me the courage to put my hand onto His Foot. Throughout the whole translation, I held on to His Foot.
It was 2001 and earlier that year a new rule had been made, stating that nobody was to touch Swami’s feet...
Because of the announcement, I took great care that no one else saw. Swami, in His compassion, was reinforcing that the most important thing in life was to hold tightly to His Feet. pp. 157-158
Swami looked at me and said, “Good translator,” and then asked me, “What do you want?” it was like lightening awareness that this was the opportunity for me to ask God for what was most important in my life. In a second, I wondered if I should ask Swami about my dream or petty things in life? Or should I ask for the ultimate?
There was no real question, I looked directly at Swami and said, “Swami, I want moksha. I want liberation.” Swami stretched out His hand to me and opened His palm, face-up as if making an offering, saying, “I give it to you.” pp. 169-170